Sunday, August 16, 2009 I KNOW MY GOD, HE'S GONNA BRING MI THRU
for the past few weeks i thought alot about my commitments in my life that i have to cut down becus of my studies. realise that in JC last min chiongin dun works like in sec sku.. my mid yr failed badly n teacher even called my mother..retaining has never occured to my mind n yet it became sth that i m facing to overcome! i hav alot to study.. yes. ALOT! n im not stress out becus i hav alot to studies..im stress out that i dun have enuff time n have veri bad time management that cause mi to lack behind in studies.
my bad time management results in me gg home late EVERYDAY! weekdays i rch home veri late like 9pm-11pm plus..its ok if its holiday bt there's sku tmr, lots to do.. the "best" thing of all is that when i rch home late, there r still some hmwk to be done. so it affected my slp..every weekday i slept at 1am plus n wake up at 5.30am to go to sku..4 hrs per day i thought its enuf, bt my body fails mi..
the scary thing is that every single day i go to sku, for every lecture and tutorial i will force myself to stay awake cus i always feel my head heavy n almost doze off. n sometimes my mind drift away so fast after i thought i m concentrating in lesson finally. i cant control my self frm stoning, dozing! i tired gg to the toilet to wash up, sugar intake bt it jus doesnt work. EVERY HOUR AT LEAST 5 TIMES OF DOZING OFF. if this goes on, i miss alot of lessons.. feels like a living hell to force myself to open my eyes.
my body almost broke down yesterday when i was studying...i cant help myself bt to lie on the table.. alternate days i will get headache for hours.. i prayed, ask for advice bt here i am, back to square one, some commitments jus couldnt let go.. bt i nid alot of time to study.. i alrdy stop temporarily from gg to ldrs mtg n my cca. bt time is still not enuff and my mind cnt work.
my mom is very worried abt mi cus i complain of headaches n she see that i dun slp much.. oh no, a bad testimony now! to skumates n family..
today mom complain again cus i slept so little yet wake up earli morn in 5.30plus to go for my safra bay run.. so little slp no strength still run, thats wad she says. aniwae completed my 10km feeling physically tired..
im so physically tired, feels like getting sick to get 7days mc just to REST!
but God is good, He wont let mi fall sick. H shall watch over me,for when i m weak, then i am strong! I KNOW MY GOD, HE'S GONNA BRING MI THRU THIS TOUGH TIME! pray that my body regains strength.
Posted at 8:47 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Profile
# Felicia Lee
# 19, valentine baby 140292
# cityharvest church
# schooled at Innova JC
# serving God whole heartedly
# love the color green!
# loves God
# loves my sisters,mommy papa,ah ma ah gong
# loves jamming
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Wishes
# for my whole household to be saved!
# get good grades for "A" level! which i think i did alrdy :D
# to be happy everyday
# get a family makeover protrait
# earn lots of money when i grow up
# buy a big house for whole family to stay with ah gong ah ma
# able to make everyone else around me happy too
# have my own room and my own walk in wardrobe
