Saturday, December 24, 2011
this year has been fruitful. :)
though i had been thru many many obstacles and challenges, i have also been blessed alot with many breakthroughs.
God is good to not just give us a life with ups and downs, but a life with ups and down CONCURRENTLY so we do not lose hope when one part of our life gets down. :)
Although i did not achieve some of my goals i set for this year, but i have gotten nearer to them.
and i have just thought of new goals to set for the year 2012! yipee!
1) grow closer spiritually to Jesus thru completing my reading of the bible and having consistent quality time with God. (it is really quite dissapointing that i did not finish reading even new testament, but fear not, its a new morn everday, new day to set new targets. i do not want to tell God i have not finish reading his word when i get to heaven. since the end time is nearing i got to prepare myself and really finish reading the bible. and not just reading, i meant real studying of the word! woohooo! ) And of course, i figure out reading the word is just not enough, i have to really pray more, even fast more consistently, so that i would really learn to rely FULLY (100%) on God in all areas of my life, in such a way that i really depend on Him. i have been telling myself to keep the faith but realise i always end up with looking at things in a physical level, where i think its impossible or challenging. instead, i should look thru the lens of God, and really trust that he will give me strength, and no just that, He will also help me to turn the "impossible" into possibles! i feel this is my main priority and main goal or perhaps no.1 goal of 2012. my mother/girlfriends are asking me to quickly get attatched with a boyfriend. but i haven even get my spiritual life in place yet, how could i do that? at least thats what i feel at this point of time. (pardon me, like what i created this blog for, i meant for it to be a reflection page, where i pen down my words and confess literally thru typing. so whatever that i wrote here are sorta saying to myself. so it gets draggy haha)
2) compose songs for God.
actually at this point of time, judging on my abilities, hmm... i am alittle ashame to even say this. hmmm, but like what pastor shared today regarding the guy paul pott (winner of britain got talent) , when people dont listen to his voice and dont appreciate him, he turns and sing to God, telling himself that if others dont listen to him, God will still be there to listen to him. what i am trying to tell myself is that even if i am not very good as seen by physical eyes, Jesus will still listen to me, and appreciates me. right? and anyway, the songs are For Him. gifts to Him. sang to Him with my heart. haha! :D
3) gets my grandparents, uncles and whole household to be saved!
talking about this, it really makes me feel dissapointed or even "sian" now, to pursue this goal. things are totally not looking good in this aspect, BUT God can and WILL work miracles in my household. for he said "when one is saved, the whole household shall be saved!" so who knows, God knows that my whole household, my dear grandparents,cousins,uncles,aunties shall be saved!!! :)
4) maintain a spirit/ attitude of "shamelessness"
by being not ashame of stepping out to being what God has called me to be. i really want to get rid of my "paiseh" attitude of thinking im not good enough all the time. instead incorporate the mindset of "i will be glad to boast about my weaknesses and persecutions. so that the power of Christ can work thru me, for when i am weak, i am STRONG".
5) appreciate what i have, rather than focusing on what i dont have.
i wanna stop looking and scrutinizing at what i dont have, which i tried to tell myself that i have when i know that i actually just dont have it. sad to say right. haha. instead, i should focus all my energy and strength on what i already have, and make it better, to glorify Him. i should really believe that when he have given me this specific talent, as long as i ask and believe, He would really inject the FULLNESS of Christ (all the talents,attitudes,gifts,compassion...) into my tiny physical body! so that i can fully MAXIMISE what he have given me to do good for his kingdom. well i am actually talking about the special voice that God has given me to sing. i find it hard sometimes to confess out to people that i sing. but i felt rebuked. why should i be ashame man? if this is what He has given me, i should all the more use it, glorify Him with it. i should be no longer me, but more of Him in me. of course needless to say that He will guide me on how to use it. :)
i have alot more to say to sum up my goals and what i learnt this year, my visions and so much more! wait till next time! )
ciao!
Posted at 2:22 AM
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