Sunday, April 18, 2010
gladys ambitious photos
my sister gladys wanna show off some of her skills. here goes. (cant expect much. its a phone camera. she'll be happy to see this ltr thru eugenia's itouch)
photo credit: gladys the great MUA HAHA
Posted at 10:37 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
i got the toy camera that i wanted! yeah!
its exp for its cost price but i love it. actually online it sells from a range of $90- $100. i bought it straight from the shop at $105 to avoid postage fees and all that hassle. im glad i got it! china sells it for $40 only la! lol. next time go china buy loads and sell in spore. lol, thats what all the online sprees do.
the film is really hard to find in normal kodak and fujifilms outlets. i had to go to peninsula to get the film. i got the black and white film and the coloured film. even the film is costly than the usuals. guess what! even sending the films to produce the photos is costly too! normally it cost 30-50cents per photo but for this Holga 120 GCFN, it cost 70-80ents each photo to be produced.
its indeed costly in the long run man. i hope the effects come out nice! gonna keep a collection of the photos i take so that i when i grow up, i can show my kids and tell them im a photographer when im young. LOL! nobody beats rachel in our class in capturing inspiration moments. she takes wonderful pics even wiv her hp alone! so talented! she's getting a DSLR soon!
ytd went to ah ma hse again to eat. now adays i only go ah ma hse once a week on sats. sad. last time when i stay beside ah ma's block, i took it for granted that i can go her hse everyday to have dinner. now i miss those days. school end late and its not convenient to get dwn to ah ma's. i miss ah gong and ah ma!
she cooked duck porridge and served me a A BIG BOWL! and i finished it! yummm...looks disgusting in the pic right? its not trust me. its super delicious!
tmr's gonna be a loooong day. 4 consultations tmr with teachers. 2 compulsory ones for lit and gp. after that staying back to ask some maths and econs qns. jia you felicia! loads of hmwk..gonna end with a disgusting gold fish. disgusting and ugly is the new beauty to me. lol! i dont know why im attracted to ugly things nowadays. even rachel say my frog keychain is ugly literally but i love it. LOL!
puffy fish signing off! CIAO and GOD BLESS! :D
photo credit: deviantart
Posted at 10:12 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Saturday, April 17, 2010
a wonderful end marks a new adventurous begginging
~my rushy week~
(ps: thats me running in a musuem!)
this week has been rushy, kinda down towards the end but unexpectedly 2 great news cheered me up so much!
wow! thank God! i still cant believe it! God made me believe whats impossible in my eyes is simply just possible in his's. so much for my cryings and all that during my pw days...
i got an A for PW!!! unexpectedly. God did above and beyond what i can expect.
whole class get As and Bs! once again innova did very well :)
today morning, miss margaret made an announcement that PW result will be released at 2pm sharp. that alone made my heart pound. everybody starts to wooo here and there but only me, starts to dread away. how much i dreaded for this day to come. i became emo the whole morn and talk almost to none. i dont wanna rmb all that suffering and griefs in pw ever again and yet today was the release result! pw is the worse subject i had ever taken. ppl can malign and wrong u so much so that u feel like giving up.
of course in the end i didnt gave up. i perservered and today's result was shown to be unbias. im glad it did me justice. last yr during pw, my grp member wronged me and sort of accused me and stuff. i dun wanna rmb ever again. miss margaret screamed at me thru the phone and insulted me so badly that i feel that it became a personal attack on me. i was so angry and felt so maligned and sosososo unfair that i feel like giving up. cried so many times infront of so many teachers cus of this subject.
when man is unfaithful, God is always faithful. miss margaret mentioned and screamed at me last yr that "i will make sure u would NEVER get the same good grade as ur member!". many ppl think this is a wake up call. no it isnt. infact i feel so maligned and accused of what i did. she dont bother to find out the truth and accuse me of not doing my work when i worked so hard and work my life AROUND IT.
im glad God sees it. and today, a mircale happen and i got an A. deep in my heart i know i deserve this grade and all my cries and hard work had been paid off. but i know this is also a miracle becus God turns the situation around when i thought miss margaret is gg to marked me out and comment on my report the wrong stuff that she think of me. im glad she didnt or whatso ever. thank u God! my results was unexpected NOT BECAUSE i didnt work hard for it. BUT BECAUSE i thought i had already been thrown down becus of all that accuses and maligns that some of my grp members and teacher marked on me. in the end the situation turned around and proved justice for those not being praised in class, for those worked hard behind the scene when ppl dun see it.
after all these pw politics, i still wanna thank miss Margaret Ng for all her efforts. she sacrificed alot. so much!! she lost sleep and lost weight(probably). she look so awesome now. so slimed down! from the way she scream and scold me when she misunderstands me, i can tell that she is a very unbias teacher. even thou she scolds me, but i know thats only becus she took me for an "irresponsible" person. she's actually a very very very nice teacher i must say. but i hope she checked things clearly thru 1st before she misunderstand and scold the wrong person again, so that nobody will end up like me. :)
some ppl complained why they didnt get an A when they think they should. i know how that feels. i know exactly how it feels when i got a C for chinese. but i gotta admit God is the key strength to my success. in my darkest and weakest moment, he always works! however during my chinese Alevel, i relied too much on myself n neglected the truth that strength does not come from me alone but from God.
unexpectedly, what i realise with annabelle of a trend in my class is that ppl who get A in our class are mostly christians. these ppl are the ones that teacher did not praised as much as the rest and often being put down by teacher. out of these ppl, most cried before cus of PW. the main thing is not the cry part, but its that ppl who are not recognized by teacher as "good" did well. is that good? i hope it is.
so much happened in PW. so much unhappiness. sooooo much. i cant explained it, its just so overwhelming and it is one of the phase of life that i dun wish to rmb. it is that bad i can say. but thru it, it made me stronger and realise that the world can be against u and condemn u, but God is gonna sees the truth and reward u greatly for what u deserves. thru PW, i realise and experience so many politics that the business or office work experience of betrayal, lies, cover ups, bootlicker and stealing of orignal work. i learnt so much and i thank Jesus for it.
i will be more aware of this world which always caught me off guard when i thought everything is gg smooth.
2nd thing that cheered me up is that unexpectedly a miracle happened again that i do not have to go for STAR PROGRAM(Sit-There-And -Rot program; a program to stay back to study in a distracting environment)! at first i only pass 1 subjects out of my 5 subjects! wow thats a disgusting grade right? somemore the subject that i pass is literature which is my weakest sub and got an E. very dissappointed!! my fav subject econs which i put in quite alot of effort did not pass :(
but aftr moderation, my geog and econ was pulled up! and in the end i pass all subjects except 2 h1s. yeah yeah! no need to go STAR program! and wads most miraculous is that im chosen to go for REAP program for econs so that teacher can mould us to get an A. thats quite impossible right? and unbelievable! frm at first failing econs to getting a D, yet still can go REAP program! lol!! again, I REALISE WHATS IMPOSSIBLE TO ME IS SUPER POSSIBLE AND EASY TO GOD.
Rachel told me that a word comes to her mind when she sees me now and when she look at my pics. the word is "FAITH". wow i was shocked. why would she think of such a word? anyway i treat that as a beautiful compliment. hehe :)
i realise i look so much fatter and bigger in photos. my mom says so too. some random ah beng ask me on fb whether im pregnant! GRRRRR! ROARR! im underweight actually! hehe paiseh thats 2 years ago. now im 90% balanced for my weight and height. still alittle light for my height.
wanna grow heavier towards 100%. is that a good thing?
nah..i'll stay this way!
so this week has been rather beautiful for me! i had saved up using my 1 week allowance for the camera! yea! thx God once again for increased allowance. i will treasure my happiness which not everyone are blessed to have. tomorrow im gg to buy holga! the camera that i hav been dreaming thruout the week! :D
ok some random pics that i took. 1st time trying panaroma shots with shurou on our phones after buying and using our phones for more than a year. lol! playing with it in school library. i must say i admire jean more and more! she's very photogenic and i think she's perfect to advertise for ASIAN PRODUCTS. she's got the ASIAN BEAUTY. kinda korean look at certain angles. jean, the girl in the 1st shot who is fairer.
this is gladys and joy. took this when i brought them out one day to swim at dad's gym.
"they (the unfortunates, poor and needy) follow each other on the wind ya know, cus they got no where to go"- Michael jackson.
Ciao!
THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING IN MY LIFE! :)
Posted at 12:37 AM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
lets go the kindness way.
like any other usual day, i hop on the train after school with anticipation to get home asap to get a cool shower. man, its hot for sure. a story began, began right in the train...
the moment i went in the train, i look around for a spot to sit and rest my tired shoulders on. many people came in later than me but man, their actions were real fast! they rushed and stamped their butts on the limited seat. and there i was, standing up with my heavy bag on my weary shoulders :( ( it wasnt so bad la.)
then the next stop, admiralty. yeah finally can rest! a seat! ( yar la, whatever.the auntie attitude) ok so like the others, i sat down and get out my book to read. yeah! new magazine to read. as i flip the pages, i notice an old uncle walking in too. i was about to give up my seat, but a lady beside me did. ( so gracious right..) Then a lady carrying a baby walked in with her elderly mother too. what surprises me was that, without hesitation, the old uncle stood up and gave the seat to the lady carrying the baby. they had a little awkward debate on "u should have the seat, not me". and after which, the lady lost, and she sat down after much persuation from the old uncle. how nice of the uncle!
at once, i stood up and gave my seat to the uncle. but, the old uncle once again push the seat to the elderly woman. (actually she's not old, infact younger than the uncle. around 50. not really elderly). anyway, the auntie was kind enough and let the uncle have the seat. so he sat down.
oh did i mention, there was another auntie with the lady too. probably her aunt or sth. anyway, she's old too. ( there seems like there are many old people taking the train nowadays. the gov should increase the number of priorty seats. lol.) so this auntie, the lady's mom and me stood up as there were no seats.
"khatib". another available seat came. again without hesitation, the uncle ran for that empty seat to give up his seat to the lady's mom, so that she could sit tgt with her daughter and grandchild. she sat down. after which, another empty seat came, i was expecting myself to stand till i reach braddell. but a kind lady B pulled my bag gently, i turned back and she make signals that i should have that empty seat since i gave up mine. (how nice of her) but i was thinking since i can stand, why not just let the others who are more tired than me have it. so the lady's aunt who was still standing then, got the seat.
"yio chu kang". another passenger left. that seat which was empty is just nice beside the lady with the baby. so the auntie left for that seat just so she could take care of the baby too. looking around, nobody else, i sat down at the last empty seat.
all these while, i did not know this whole story scene is captured all in the lady B's eyes. she spoke to me and told me i did a great job and expresses to me how she feel disgusted about young ppl not letting seats to elderly. well i feel encouraged of course. but this is A VERY SMALL ACT which i can help. there was one teen in the train then, who was seated at the priorty seat who did not gave up his seat when he saw the old man pushing seat to the lady with the baby. so lady B told me ppl like him only avoid eyes and continue to pretend to look down. before she alight, we wave good bye.
wow. firstly, im so amazed that an elderly man actually gave up seats to a person younger than him. whats more is that he did it three times. 2nd time he initiated the lady's mom to sit, 3rd time, he move away to another empty seat so as the lady and her mom could sit tgt. that uncle is really amazing.
im so touched that kindness still exist. i wish it still did between the youngs. i wish the world is a better place where there are NO CHEATING, SCAMS but kindness spreading. then the world will be a better place especially for the elderly out there.
i was often cheated for my sympathy for ppl. recently, a lady came to my door and told me she needed $15 for an urgent need. she needed to take cab to tan tock send to see his father and to take keys from him so that she could return with the keys to get home too. she said she was late for work and needed to take cab soon.
of course i suspected her. i suspected as she claims to be my neighbour who move in not long and will return me the money once she get back. i suspected whether the story is true.
but, i still felt that whatever the case is, perhaps she really needed the money urgently. as i was taking my money out, the verse from the bible came to me. " when man ask you to run a mile with him, run two miles with him. when man ask you for ur top, give him you whole cloak". i forgot where this verse is found. but sth like that. this is not just talking about helping ppl, but talking about forgiving ppl even if they ask u to do sth that u really dont wanna do. some day, soon, the person will be touched by ur act of going further for them. and they will change, for the better.
at least this is what i feel, and my revelation relating to this incidence. i took $20 and pass it to the lady, cus i could not find exact $15. she told me she stay above and i did not bother to rmb the floor and unit as i trust that she will return me. even if she wont, i wouldnt mind as much. i feel that if she is gonna cheat, she must be driven to desperation in need of money to do such things. of course not everybody cheat becus they need money urgently, most ppl cheat becus of GREED. greed drive ppl crazy.
I told this incidence to my parents and they scolded me. man, i wish i hadnt told them about it. they call me stupid and blame me and stuff. as if i hadnt grown up. at least i felt what i did was right. my dad criticized me of always buying tissues from elderly. he felt that even if i dont buy, ppl will buy from them. worse still, he have the mindset that he rightfully owns his money and should not share it with anyone unless they help and worked for it. he said this sentence to me before. "i worked and earn my money myself, why should i share or give anyone who do not work for it?". if everyone think i like him, the wolrd will die. i mean the wolrd will be filled with rich ppl and the death of many poor ppl.
i mean we are his children of course he share his money with us. he is true that ppl should not laze instead work while they can and not rely on ppl for support. but, what about the rest who have no ability to work, no ability to take care of themselves? shouldnt we share our joy with them?
whenever i walk past ppl who r suffering, i feel the burden to share my love and care with them. it really breaks my heart to see them suffer yet i could not do much abt it.
i wish there are more caring, fillial and understanding ppl out there. the world will be a better place. is it right for us to discriminate the intellectually disabled ppl like those with down syndrome? they too, are normal ppl. perfectly normal ppl. it irritates me to see ppl shooing from them. sometimes its better to live in lives like theirs, which are simple and lovey. they are very friendly ppl! ever more friendly than u think! well at least from my experience of interaction with them in JAMS church. ( jesus for all mind).
the old, the young, the middle age come tgt and praise God so happily, even more purely, sincere and innocent than most of us out there!
i pray that the world would be a better place. i do not mean that im good or the correct example. infact im mean sometimes too. im not at all times fillial, i do not treat ppl right at times too.but im trying now, with my best to do what i can for these ppl out there. ARE YOU?
im expressing out on behalf of those unfortunates.
i really pray that there is such thing as eartly paradise where ppl can love each other and help each other in times of need just like they were blood related brothers and sisters.
start holding hands.
untill next time! ciaos and God bless! :)
Posted at 3:57 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Monday, April 12, 2010
It has been a wonderful and beautiful week!
went kite flying.
these are the effects that it creates. i seen a phtographer on tv using this camera to capture pictures for her gallery. wow it looks amazing. it may not be better than a digital cam, but i love the design!
Ciao! and God bless! :D
Posted at 9:55 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
