i'm gonna crush it.

crush all the hindrances, all the distractions and all the temptations.

sth have been bothering me untill the point that i find it hard to focus,

to zoom in to studies.

anyway, im gonna spank it, and leave it behind.

just half a yr to endure, and im off!

off to my promised land,

another joyous adventure!

nth is gonna stand in the way, if there is,

still, i will trample on it.

especially not relationship.

tmr's GP prelim! :)

im gonna DO it!

run the race in faith.

3hrs T.T

5pm :(

its like the big day of the year, and awww...

perhaps i'll take cab with bob.

a long day tmr.

probably at night 11 or 12am will get home.

Asia conference, here i come! :D

Thx God for motivation!

God i ask for wisdom for GP!

Ciao. morning and God bless :)

~ My Gorgeous Week~




one thing that inspired me today.

early sat morn, woke up at 8am. obligated to bring joy to church for asia conference musical practice. 3 hrs back and forth. a sacrifice! LOL. sacrifice my sleep. tomorrow another 3 hr to and back from church. its all worth it.

anyway thats not the point. i sat in the main audi and watched my sister practice the wushu dance. kelven was there as well. he so cute la. fighting in the scenes of the musical. the moment i step into the hall, this little boy caught my eye. i was asking his maid whether she have any idea where my sister should report to for wushu dance. while we talked, i saw the boy looking quite pale and sick staring at the stage and the other kids.

then, during practice break time, thier children church teachers distributed london choco rolls to the kids. he took 2 of different flavours and wave it in the air with his arms stretched up. he jumped with joy in the air and laughed, as if he he had gotten the best treasures on the earth. looking at how satisfied he is, i smiled to myself.

i pointed to kelven the little boy and told him he's quite cute. and kelven said he's not like the normal kids. i thought what could be wrong with him. a minute later, i saw joy communicating and playing with him. i joked with joy as she played so rowdily ," eh, u playing or bullying kor kor?"

then i ask, what is she doing cus i see her gesturing to the little boy. joy then told me that the little boy cannot hear and cannot talk.

then i realise he is deaf and dumb. oh, so thats what kelven is talking about. joy continued that the teacher dont allow him to join in the wushu dance becus he cannot hear what the teacher is saying and instructing him. then i thought to myself. how sad it is that he cannot dance when he wanted to glorify God in the asia conference

joy said that just now she gestured to the boy becus she want to ask the boy sth. wow. joy always have a way.

then i thought to myself again. its tragic that u canot hear when it is so impt to listen to the beat for the cue of when to do certain moves. u cannot hear what the teacher is instructing as well. u can only follow what u see, and mimick the othe kids.

i observed him. he look so happy and look so normal. infact he look happier than the other kids. he kept running down to the stage and dance the ending move with the others. perhaps he is allowed only in that scene. when the teacher instruct who should go left and right, he just followed the crowd. when he dance, he dance so excitedly. he grooves better than the rest despite hard of hearing! he have great timing too even thou he got no cue. hmmm.. there's definitely sth about this kid.

all of a sudden a revelation came to me in a still small voice that the boy is perfectly lovely and normal in God's eyes. his weakness is strength in God's eyes. and who says he is gonna remain dumb and deaf forever? NO! God is gonna strike him one day and HEAL him totally from inside out! and he will become a living testimony to all. all his uncertainities are planned by God alrdy. H've got great plans for this kid. he's gonna shine one day, for Him. i know and i know and i know that his potential will be maximised one day, and when those who mocks and despise him will see how he lives victoriously with God, will turn around and bow down before God.


sometimes it hurts me to look at ppl who are not maximised to their potential. the day i went to support the tchouck ball Adiv, i observed sth that inspire me too. after the match, me and a few ppl went to have dinner tgt. when wen hao left the trophy on the table in the coffeeshop and we went off, the cleaner auntie came and held the trophy up and examines it carefully. i saw her and tried to figure out what she is doing. oh she is looking for 4D number!! thats what i interpreted, nobody knows what she is doing too. i smiled at her and told her that there are no 4D only "2010" on it. she didnt reply me, i thought she don't understand chinese. she gestured to me. wen hao came and told her in hokkien that there are no 4D numbers too. this time, she replied but with no words coming out. she echoed "ehh..oohh arr" and gestured with her hands. this is then i realised that its not that she cannot understand chinese, its that she cannot talk as she's dumb. she made gestures to us as if thanking us and make a thumb up sign. i felt so warmly touched that this little trophy that she sees could amazes her and gives her hope. she's easily satisfied.

deep in my heart, i thought that she could do greater things. she's just not maxmised due to the weakness that ppl see in her. i felt so touched that she is easily satisfied and love life. its such a heart warming scene. i pray her weakness will be seen as strength not just in God's eyes, but in all of our eyes. a little appreciation is all it takes to encourage oneto run, for a whole life time.

just like what i see in the little boy today, i see strength, hope, humility, happiness, satisfaction and a life full of joy in that auntie. both of them have a common trait. they serve, as long as they r given a chance to.

when i look at the little boy and then i look at joy, i felt that my family is tremendously blessed that four of us sisters are born and bred up normally. we get whatever we want. God is good to me and my family. there must be a reason that ppl are born to be defected. definitely God will use them to show that He will not shortchange us but strengthen us. thru healing them, ppl will see that He is the strength that we need, the hope that we have.

when im weak, i often wrestle with God, questioning why he allow some things to happen on me. but without fail, God always strengthen me in the end and i could use my experience of how i overcome obstacles thru God, to encourage ppl. my weakness always become a strength in the end, and every weakness have a story to tell, to encourage and to inspire.

i thank God for using me, and i pray that we shall be maximised for a greater cause! :)

oh yar im quite unhappy that ppl always thought im joy and gladys' mother when i bring them out. perhaps of my dressing, i look too mature. today brought joy to the library and the librarain thought i was joy's mother and when i told him im only 18, he looked shock. LOL. do i look that old? the other time, its even more absurd. 4 of us sisters cab down to church and i paid for the cab fare cus my mom deposit the money to me. the driver ask "all 3 ur daughters ah?" what?! eugenia look older than me lor... shhh....

look carefully at the last kiddy looking lady.
thats how i look in school. do i look like a mother? NO!




wait till ai ling sees that i describe myself as lady. she will scream, " u lady-like meh?!"


haha ok, Ciao and God bless! :D

yea! i had finished my first and my last task for tonight. i mean this new morn dawn.

i only manage to complete my reading for geog! woah, underestimated atmo topic. so complicated that it took me so long just to read and understand the lecture.

so late alrdy, not much time to complete the other revision tasks. .

thx God tmr, i mean today is another new day to finish them up before meet teacher for consultation..

good night and Ciao! xD

its night time, where nocturnals come alive!

my dad is busy working at his trading and investment stuffs. sitting infront of 2 computers filled with charts and graphs while talking on the phone.

eugenia is busy revising for her exam. probably physics. cornering herself att he dining table.

me? i am in my study room, enjoying the music while studying. actually to be exact, im just finishing up my unfinished homework. i need to work, triple harder. teachers are so good at discouraging students even when she did her best. well, thats a uncertain fact. but God is always certain in times of uncertainity. im gonna do it. struggling? yes of course. stress? yes, u bet. but with stress and struggles comes pressure. with greater pressure comes positive motivation to move forward. stress is good, pushing me. yea. im currently "enjoying" stress now.

im gonna keep track of what im doing tonight!

first up, finish up geog revision on atmosphere. im lost in lectures!

secondly, gonna finish up reap econ essay!

third, gp esaay on science and tech.

fourth case study of econ if i still last.

fifth, if i really haven die yet, im gg for revision for my econ essay qn 4 on international trade which i think i probably just flung it not long.

ok off i go!

~my pacing week~

oh i just realise these 2 albums are produced by indonesian bands!!

MYMP from indonesia too!

I’ve collected my very own Holga camera’s pictures! Hmm.. what can i say.. its not up to my expectations, but nevertheless, its still sweeeeee! Ok here goes!

as i look up from my corridor of my new hse, this is what i see.

i just love the sky. it produce wonders!


this was taken from my corridor too.

a school which is quite abandon as its closed down alrdy. this is the school where my uncle studied and met my his girlfriend! btw he just proposed! after 10yrs being tgt. lol! successful proposal! ps. my uncle is only 26 this yr. mr chua thought he was 30-40+. lols!!

Holga is manually controlled. that's the fun part, where i can take a few shots within 1 frame. here goes what joy took with it. she took a picture of eugenia, our gate and our bicycle. and thats what came out. abstract right? i call this the fortunate borders. where eugenia is smiling happily trapped inside a gate with a bike. lols!

this is nth much, just a candid shot of gladys and joy.

i should had used the colour filter!

gladys used the yellow coloured filter on me.

this effect is better than the usual white flash.

hehe, my cousin zayne accidentally blinked. and it turns out quite cute actually!

the negatives.

i kept the other pics in this small album.

oh yar and some random photos of my grandparents, hehe.

my ah gong, old gong gong liao. 71 this yr if im not wrong. hehe.

he got much nicer smilley shots in eugenia's digital cam.

i took it without ah ma's notice! this is how she look at home.

i got much prettier shots of her when she smile and dress up when she go out.

even thou she's old, but i must say that all women love to dress up. come to think of it, she's not that old la. just 63.

for mothers' day, i gave mom this daisy, it lasted till today! and it still looks beautiful.

The sports heats in school really stirred something within me. I mean not to further my training but it got me thinking. Last yr, i gave myself way too much pressure to run. And that i lost my passion in running. My 4 yrs in sec school in track team and cross team were full of excitement and i really learnt alot back then. My speed and endurance drastically improved during those years. During my last yr in sec school, i gave my best for nationals cross country. our track team is a combi of both long dist and short dist. And thru that cca, i felt that we left a legacy behind in school. We were a very bonded team i gotta say. During my sec 3 days, we went out almost every weekend to watch movies and just have fun at somebody’s hse. Perhaps becus of our bond, we worked hard tgt and we all did well!

In sec 4, my 2.4km timing was around 11.40mins. of course its not good, but i felt great as i improve, with improvement, comes achievement. When all cca has stopped training becus of prelim for Olevel, we still train. And we stopped training in july just before prelim for o level. Many people say we r crazy, as in studies and Olevel should come before our nationals. But i felt that as long as we can balance, that settles. And my Olevel results proved them wrong. but after my nationals, i stopped training. Completely stopped. And 7 mths without training, my endurance fell drastically! In jc 1st yr, my 2.4 timing really was a shock to me as my timing deprove alot. My passion fall and i no longer grew interested in running which surprises me! This sports heats stir within me images of the past, my track team, my cross country team in sec school. Well, its pretty pleasant to think of them.

i found my race' number tags for the past yrs! thx God its still there for memories! :)



Yes! Beside proving to my classmates that i can balance my sports and my Olevel well, i proved all the non-believers in my class wrong too! most of them are my frens but they would still question my faith, tell me that i cant get good grades for Olevel becus i spent too much time training and that i dun have much time to study. Many people question whether i can do it, they know im Christian. And they started to “persecute” me of my faith in God.

I tell them “my God CAN do it for me”.

Of course i have to study my part as well. I dropped Amaths, and many “persecute” again. “why u drop? U have 1 less subject to score well to get into poly or jc”... many ppl started questioning especially on my faith in God. They know i go to church every weekend as our cellgroup in school grew and more people join, and most of them were invited to our church before. So i guess thats how we started. They started to ask, how are we gonna cope if we keep gg to church during weekend.

I wanted to tell them “if i dun go to church every weekend for God’s presence, i don’t know how am i gonna cope”.

That is the year where i depended on God really really much. My faith broke thru to a whole new level. My results surprises my non-beliver friends! Yes! All glory unto God!
This yr, Alevel, i gotta place the same faith in God once again. But, for an even greater cause!

Faith+work= perfect.

I keep this equation in mind. I have the faith, but i dun have the work. Thats my problem now. Im tooooo lazy. Too lazy for my own good.

im glad i have great frens in class who motivate me to study. very glad. all smart girls i must say. hehe. this yr, without guys in our class, we thought we would be quieter, but no. the truth is, we talk more, and grew noisier. oops. for the first time in my life, i felt like i was in a girls school. hahas. good experience.

1) 1 reap essay of a) and b)

2) 3 geog essays for consultation

3) 1 gp essay for consultation

4) 1 lit essay on TIOBE hmwk

total 7 essays to finish up.

i wish i can finish all of them!

yes i will! if not, it gonna make me feel even lousier in school work.

ARGH... I CAN DO IT!

Ciao and God bless! :D

~my restful week~

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