Friday, July 30, 2010
GOD's way.
what can i say, God has been good.
to be exact, good is not the perfect word. kudos to Jesus!
so much that He had worked out for me.
greatest of all, thru Him, i found my strength, my talents and gift.
compared to others, it came alittle late. but to me, He is never too late or too early.
He is just RIGHT on time.
things that i ask for always seems so long and far before i could get it.
but when i got it,
i realised He has carefully planned it just so that i can enjoy every piece of it at its best
and at the right time.
KUDOS TO GOD!
He brought me thru the wilderness of my prelims.
he cleared my doubts that i hav within me.
i've come forth although not shining my best,
BUT I KNOW HE HAS THE BEST FOR ME AT THE LAST.
KUDOS TO GOD!
when others are mugging in the canteen and at home in the evening,
im practicing hard for the concert with guilt that i may lag behind in my studies.
but He comforts me that its my time to shine and there will be time
to rest and to catch up.
afterall, He is the creator of all,
HE CAN PULL ME BACK WHENEVER HE WANTS,
just a matter of whether i ask.
KUDOS TO GOD!
my parents changed their views about me and my gifts from God.
KUDOS TO GOD!
i surprised all.
KUDOS TO GOD!
He taught me to be humble and to use my gifts wisely and
no for my own pride.
so much happened but all i can say is that...
THANK YOU GOD, FOR USING ME.
fear stirred within me just a min ago when i heard from my frens
that mdm chitra was mad at me for not turning up in school today.
why?
cus she reminds me of ms Ng last yr who gave me a tough time during PW.
but its not her fault, she wants the best for me.
im afraid...afraid that the same thing would happen again like PW.
i dont want it to happen again, its like a nightmare to me.
but then, God turned that nightmare around when i relied on him.
i got an A.
could it be that i have to go thru the same pain before i get my A?
im not prepared. not even mentally.
but with God, i think i am.
if i have to go thru again to make the impossible a possible,
i would say, i wouldnt mind that 3 months suffering.
actualli im lying. im really scared!
i pray that He will bring me thru this. i know i cant do this without him
and i m not prepared to go thru these alone.
certain burdens flood me. im scared, afraid, burnt.
i have weird dreams.
i miss my grandparents, i want to go back to the past where we were still under 1 roof.
now i can only visit at most twice a week.
i miss all my relatives and cousins.
yet i know i can only look forward.
i wish i can quickly grow up and earn loads
and help support my grandparents and give them the greatest life they deserve!
my ah ma eyes are bad now, God heal them.
im selfish, i dont do the best for my parents
while they should be the one im giving the best lives to.
1 wish.
eternal lives for all my family especially my grandparents.
and there's only 1 way.
THANK YOU GOD.
i believe in miracles.
Posted at 12:40 AM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
