Monday, June 2, 2014
Surprise! :)

Hey! Decided to dedicate this post to u. that is, if u happen to see my blog. which u don't now. so all the more u will be surprised when u chanced upon this!

when we first got tgt, it was because of our common interest - music.
however, as time flies, i realise there were so many differences between us!

Sam and Fel celebrating their 3rd bdays in 1993 and 1995.

Fel is so doted. look! she've got a customized cake with a big "F" and a monkey (her zodiac animal)! while Sam got an ordinary bengawan solo mango cake. awwwww... haha!

Differences between Sam and Fel

plays the guitar Vs sings

plays the bass Vs plays the cajon

meticulous Vs forgetful

OCD, neat freak Vs dirty bumpkin

expensive buys Vs cheap buys

spend more Vs save more

on guard Vs overly trusting

slight pessimistic Vs overly optimistic

wise Vs naive

introvert Vs extrovert

perfect balance skills Vs clumsy

math-sci pro Vs lang-humans pro

faithFUL Vs doubting

no expressions Vs expressive

gratify first Vs delayed gratification

sensitive Vs ignorant

late bloomer Vs quick start

actually after i write finish, i realise, woah, so what's good about me? somehow our strengths covered each other weaknesses.

here's the best part that u've been waiting for!

What i love about him (which makes him a rare catch)

1) He is very romantic and surprises me alot.

whenever i come back from a family trip, he'll surprise me with something. my fav macdonald's froggie hellokitty, and this time its a cutey dog that i've wanted!!!

when im stressed, he gets me my fav spicy tao ka noi seaweed and sour gummies from mini toons. cheap treats but it meant so much to me especially during exam crave.

i rmb after my tuitions last time he would always wait for me outside the unit by sitting at the staircase. him being there is a surprise already. but sometimes there's something more! a card, a sun flower, my fav seaweed again. awww..

he got me flowers on my bday and even on some regular days just because i casually said i liked it.

he loves to DIY for me. although its pretty fail sometimes and i almost scold him for buying it until i realise he made it himself. a few days ago, he knew i was stress. i forgot about what already. it seems like im always stress. that's becus im rather neurotic. so, he made me this flower ring. something like a small wreath in the shape of a heart with roses on it. i almost scold him for wasting money to buy something like that until he told me he made it. oops! i love it alot and was touched becus he made it himself!

when we just got tgt, he would write me cards and he DIY them into things that i like. usually green cards and the one he use to confess to me was folded into a frog (my fav animal).

once, he couldnt find flowers, so he decided to make a paper sunflower for me. it was so sweet becus it came in time to ease me from my stress that i teared.

hais hais, having an easily stress girlfriend is not at all a good thing. but im changing to become less neurotic, and hopeful, one day, almost non-neurotic. easy take, easy go.

he would also bring me to places and surprise me by not telling me beforehand. this usually happens on my bdays and occasionally regular days as well. he use this tactic during our first date on my 20th valentine bday. on my 20th bday, we were in a bar, and he dedicated a song to me. too bad it failed but i was still secretly happy on the inside for the thought. on my 21st bday, he brought me to a jap restaurant at esplanade as he knew i love jap food and sashimi. and surprise surprise! the waiters brought out my fav cake and sang me a birthday song. so paiseh...not my kind but i totally appreciate it! on my 22nd bday, he surprised me by planning a 3 consecutive jap buffets that i told him by the time we finished our 2nd jap buffet that i wanted something else. when he loves me, he goes all out.

2) He made me feel beautiful every single moment.

even without make up on. he says i look good without make up and appreciates when i put on make up saying both suits me.

recently, i wore a new top that i was excited about and i went up to him and said "tada!". he replied "wow! this is nice". then as i probe more, i realise he actually don't like it but didnt say it out. infact after much probing he confessed that the top is "weird". what?! LOL. appreciate him so much for hiding it from me to make me feel beautiful!

even when im inconfident about my body, he told me i am perfect and i was thinking too much.

even when i both unintentionally and intentionally fart, burp, blow my nose infront of him, he still didnt mind and still accepted me. oops haha.

3) He cooks for me and washes for me.

when im tired and lazy. even when he had a long day.
he always tries to improvise by adding in my fav banana into milo spread bread and once he did that into our omelette and i was furious becus it didnt taste good. oops. my fault. thinking about it, it was so hilarious. who put banana into omelette?! love is blind. it blinds ur taste buds sam. just becus i love bananas, doesnt mean i want it in any and every food. haha! i only heard or banana prate (my fav), not banana omelette my dear!

4) He massage me.

when im tired and aching even after his long day. such as my leg sore and my bluebacks. i have many bluebacks every now and then because of my clumsiness.

5) He gives in to me in fights.

almost always.
even when i gave him a forgiveness privilege card to flash when im angry, it still didnt work becus my rage overcame my self control.
so ke lian to be my bf... :(

6) He makes all the big decisions for me.

like BTO choice of flats and registration. he's also in charge of our bank savings where he would research which bank have the best interest to save for our wedding fund. i know lately he haven been saving for the wedding fund becus he's saving for the proposal fund (kekeke).

7) He encourages me when i am down.

spiritually when i feel dry. or when i feel tired to serve or to make an effort.

8) He allows me to decide his hairstyle.

many guys wouldnt allow this. but he allowed me yeah!
he prefer comfortable near botak hairstyle but i prefer better looking ones so i'll dictate how he'll cut it. oops.

9) He gives me alot of security because he protects me.

one reason why i decided to go out with him is because he gives me a great deal of security when he leads and guides me. he's good in directions while its normal for me to be lost. i can get lost on the way to school even when i've schooled at IJC for 2 years. its not normal but its normal for felicia's routine.

im blur ,clumsy, easily trusting. he would scold me when i am overly friendly to people and especially guys. in my perspective, i think they're rather ke lian so i would try to be friendly. but he told me otherwise, that they have ulterior motive to get near me. when he scold me seriously for over trusting people who are potentially getting close to me for an ulterior motive, i feel very secure that he protects me as he can see through my blind spot.

10) He plans for our future. almost everything. he leads me.

where we would stay (in the east), how we'll get the loan etc.
banks savings

and small areas in our lives as well.

11) He'll go for food that i like even when he don't like them.

when i feel like easting jap food and he don't, he'll still pei me go.
when he has a craving for hawker food and i wanna go to an air con place to eat, he'll still pei me.
when i am stress and wanna have good food and he's on a low budget, he'll accomodate his best.

but occasionally i would follow his cravings also la. take turn. but usually the food he like would be oily and fried so i don't really like. it is usually in the hawker where its hot also.

12) He soothe me during my cramps.

when i have cramps, it can get really really bad. i would need to lie down for a long time. i would make alot of noise because its painful. all our plans have to be cancelled because of it.

instead of getting angry and impatient, he would patiently soothe me. a creative way that he thought of was to fill hot water into his rubber or plastic army water bag and place it on my adominal area and saiyung me. it really works! but still take hours though. he would also make hot drinks for me.

13) He has a huge amount of faith in God.

it can get pretty heart aching at times because when he felt the calling to give a faith offering and a huge amount for us for building fund as well as giving away things that we like, he would never hesitate and he would really give.

it's a great deal of struggle for me. many times it costs my tears. but ultimately i went ahead with it because he was so sure about it. this went for the whole 2 years in our relationship. i question him, why he got so much faith to give when nothing seems to be sprouting after so long? he just say he believe in God. and true enough, his breakthrough came after 2 years later. 2 years is long man. to me. but to him, he saw through that 2 years. he believed it would come and endlessly gave to God. finally 2 years later, Samuel prospered financially! a miracle!

from a pay of $2000, 2 years later, his pay rose to $3500! it was not a gradual change, it was really from $2000-$2100 rose next to the straight $3500! no kidding. he's now highly favored by his bosses at work. he's the marketing manager now, doing all the things he like, design, hardware. all that he love. seriously, for someone who haven gotten his degree, yet earning $3500, is really a blessing! this meant that our plans in life can advance faster already. thats what sam said. :) looking forward!

i asked him, wow! how come u saw through all these and kept giving? what give u the patience to give? he just say he believe and trust in God. and when i say he give, im not talking about our usual offering, or tithes. im talking about his huge faith givings that cost our tears.

God is indeed highly praised for this miracle. it's so obvious that God worked in sam's life. when sam prosper, i prosper too :)

through this incident, it made me realise how possible everything is to God. and he really treasured our faith givings.

So there u go! 13 things that i simply love and adore about him!

but lately i realise he is less patient with me already. i guess, people have their limits. it makes me feel that he love me less, but i know its not true. he've got so much on his hands at work and school.

so what did i do for him? sadly, im not romantic, im practical. im indecisive, im not sweet. im just... me :/ don't be duped by appearance. im not at all the girfriend material. so what did i do to deserve all these? i don't know. but he'll say, me being there is the best gift already. so thankful to God for preparing Samuel for me even before i was born. someone who complement my flaws. to guide and lead me. so happy to be going through the same phases in life.

really excited til the day he propose to me. i probed about the date. but he refuse to say. so sad. ya like durh. but i know it'll be soon. that's all i get from him. he says that when the day arrive, i'll be very touch because its a special meaningful date and i'll finally understand why he treat me this way or do certain things a particular way. i dont understand.....

awaiting that day's arrival!!

i love u dear mr sinn! :D

enjoy our casual shoot photos! great to commemorate our dating days! happy 2 years plus of being tgt dear!

i love this shot below, where he hug me close while we look into each others eyes. kind of awkward as it brought me back to how shy we both were before we got tgt :)

Posted at 11:05 PM

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