these days i,i keep feeling an urge within me to step out and do wad i can do to the poor and needy directly. perhaps its becus i watch many documentary and videos lately that make me feel i am so fortunate. im so so so so fortunate.
sometimes i feel if i can save the money instead of eating better food like pepper lunch or buffets, i eat cheaper food, then i can save alot to bless others like my grandparents. i just feel so bad when im enjoying myself most of the time, and yet some other elderly wivout children are suffering from poverty wiv no meals.
this urge is killing me! where can i start to help? where where.. i duno where, dunoe where to start. last time i rmb i sign up CHCSA, the community helpout program for 3 times, and 3 times no reply, no results. so i sign up directly thru Tizane who is in CHCSA in my zone. but no one called me up again. soon after, i joined strikeforce.
does anyone know where can we sign up to help as a grp for the terminally ill, handicapped, elderly..?
there is so many things i wanna do. yet time is limited. i should take out more time to spend wiv my grandparents and leftover to serve the people. i realli realli nid more time.. so much i wanna do!
if i could save more money, i could bless ppl arnd me! im so selfish. i spend my money on drums lesson for $40 per hr, yet my father is earning $50 per hr. although i use my own savings, but its as good as using my father hard earn money per hr jus to pay for my drums lesson. i feel so bad la. i still can go the STOMP performance, im jus so fortunate yet i didnt know. my father say "y not i knock some dustbins for u to see, u pay me $80, rather then go the STOMP" its funny but it got me thinking. i wanna be expose to more, but yet i feel... urgh..an irony within me. i could hav given that $80 to my grandparents! aiya, cant explain. its jus an IRONY within me.
ytd, i woke up late for my extra lessons. i feel like killing myself. my overslp-syndrome is killing me each day. im not productive at all! as i was walkin in toapayoh central ready to take mrt to sku, i saw 2 blind woman asking for directions. so i guided them to OLD CHANG KEE where they buy their food and brought them to the taxi stand. had a conversation wiv them on the way. actually these handicapped people are realli normal people. but some ppl shoo them away. they work as telemarketers. thank God for phones. if not they wouldnt hav a job.
sometimes i feel that people should slow down and listen to the beautiful melodies that the handicapped make on the streets. THEY ARE NOT BEGGERS PLEASE. they are businessman infact, every tune they make, they wan u to appreciate, and u pay for their music. its not realli begging. tissue sellers oso. many elderly sell tissue on the streets. but not many people stop and buy. y not buy and cheer up their day? i keep imaginging nxt time wad if i old alrdy then i stay on streets and sell tissue. if someone buy from me tissue, i will definitely feel happy cus after standing for so long, finally a profit or appreciation. many steet musicians especially those handicapped or elderly..they're realli talented man! compared to them, i hav no disabilities but yet i cant produce as good as them. woah!
I HOPE THE WORLD APPRECIATE THE POOR, ELDERLY, NEEDY MORE. AND STOP THEIR QUICK FOOTSTEPS AND APPRECIATE PPL AROUND THEM.
k, i love you papa, mommy, ah mei, xi er, joyjoy, ah gong , ah ma! i realise now when i say "i love you" to my grandparents, it doesnt seem so hard anymore. not that they dun understand, they understand k. haHA..
enuff enuff...LETS WALK THE TALK.
Posted at 11:34 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
i feel like vomitting now.. so full.. all that dao huay..
sat: after service at expo, went with elene and xuan wei to rochor dao huay..
sun: after MTT, went to rochor to eat dao huay and fellowship
tues: after sudo practice at studio, went wiv meiqi,collin,nic to rochor dao huay..
wed: after studying, went to take away some dao huay for my parents and grandparents at rochor..
thurs(today): after gg to guoyang hse to jam, went wiv elene,guankiat,xuanwei,david and michael to rochor dao huay..
im veri full now.. i hav mixed up beans,flour,cream and tou fu.. they all looks the same to mi now.. all WHITE!
but wad matter the most is those fellowships that gets us stronger and get going...
ELENE, GLAD THAT U R ALWAYS ENCOURAGING ME! LETS UPGRADE OURSELVES ON OUR DRUMMING SKILLS =]
XUE TING, I MISS YOU! PLS STUDY HARD AND SCORE WELL FOR UR A LEVEL! =]
EUGENIA, THX U FOR MAKING ME REALISE IM A GOOD SISTER, CUS I SACRIFICE MY SLEEP TO TEACH U CHINESE AND ABIT OF ENGLISH.. HAHA =X
TERRENCE, THX FOR STUDYING WIV ME MAN! PLS MONITOR ME HAHA =P
XUAN WEI, THX FOR ENCOURAGING ME IN MY PW! =]
YING YING, I KNOW IM UR ANGEL ON 090909. U R MY ANGEL TOO LOLS!
VERENA AND GUANKEAT, THX FOR TEACHING ME..YOU KNOW WAD, HAHA =D
DAO HUAY, THX FOR QUENCHING MY THIRST.
GOD, THX FOR ALL MY FAMILY AND FRENS. =D
AMEN. HAHA
PS. i hate myself for waking up late every morn n having less time to study.. I'LL CHANGE.. YES i will. and practice, PRACTICE,PRACTICE!
Posted at 1:22 AM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Saturday, September 5, 2009
wow my 1 week mc dream came true! aiya..but its still a study break..SEPT 1 WK BREAK!
gonna cherish my time left..regretted for sleeping and sleeping and sleeping!
i have a crave for many food lately..icecream..whipcream...gummies.. nah thats just the appetizer. i wanna go sakura sushi again! to eat and eat and eat away all my troubles and stress of sku work.. hehe!
suddenly rmb some funni incidents in sku. shu rou hav this function in her phone that can slow down movements in videos.. super funni. we took lots of videos.. yeah LOTS! starring felicia and shu rou. we plan to jump like crazi so that when we see the video, we look like "flying and floating". then duno hu forget to press the slow motion button -_-" the video came out is ordinary one and we look so stupid jumping and laughing at the same time..spinning and swaying out pony tails.. haha! ya la super funni our actions..
just 2 days ago, yeah as usual the girl chat in canteen. all that dirty jokes make mi cant stop laughing! ya la, then i took a break and leave "the table of jokes", for another table.. as i was walking, i overheard some more jokes and felt so silly bursting into laughter while walking! so silly...then rachel told me that it happen to her when she saw a guy's actions veri funni and she started laughing while she was walking to sku alone.. all these solo-bursting-into-laugher-syndrome is spreading!
Posted at 1:25 AM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
Profile
# Felicia Lee
# 19, valentine baby 140292
# cityharvest church
# schooled at Innova JC
# serving God whole heartedly
# love the color green!
# loves God
# loves my sisters,mommy papa,ah ma ah gong
# loves jamming
# u could say hi to felicia lee xue er on facebook
Wishes
# for my whole household to be saved!
# get good grades for "A" level! which i think i did alrdy :D
# to be happy everyday
# get a family makeover protrait
# earn lots of money when i grow up
# buy a big house for whole family to stay with ah gong ah ma
# able to make everyone else around me happy too
# have my own room and my own walk in wardrobe
