Friday, April 5, 2013
Hey there, i am back! :)
i have so much to say. so much to thank God for.
Salvation and Health still are the priorities and at the top of my wish/prayer list.
Thank God really much that He once again healed my mom! the lump in my mom's throat is just post-surgical implication which will heal by itself! it's nothing to be worried about as said by the doctor. i am really happy :)
now my mom can continue on her radio therapy alrdy. hehe. :D
God is still in control after all. im really glad :)
bad news that more people another close and loved one of mine got cancer. My ah yee gonna remove her whole womb. why must sufferings be allowed? and why am i asking this when i have read so much about just why suffering is allowed... oh God, i believe u can heal my ah yee too. she's like my godma to me since young too. heal her and be with her. give her comfort and plenty of rest and grace and protection. :)
for my own condition, well, i shouldnt call it a condition, its not anything to start with. i know its due to my negativity, as long as i start to be positive again, stamp on all that stressors, it'll be gone. studying too much on psychology really can drive me crazy. i tend to think tooooo and just way toooo much. i learnt that i should not stress so much on myself and blame myself for most things that happen in my life. i have no part in some of them and i have no power to control them too. i wish that i can learn to have a balance locus of control instead of always being internal-attributing.
Oh God, honestly, as much as how i thought i do not deserve ur blessing, please bless me. pls heal me. pls heal me emotionally, physically. renew my mind and renew my body physically. help me to stay positive and throw my burdens into ur hands. May u give me strength to withstand and resist to entertain any negative thoughts God. God, may u take away this lump in my right breast and bless that the doctor will review to me good news! i confess that i am healed and i do not require any therapy! oh God i am perfectly healthy and healed by ur stripes! thank u Jesus.
Too many people have been sicked this decade, but God's power is ever more glorified. God's grace is evermore shown to people who both deserve and do not deserve them. oh God, wont u just cure everyone especially my loved ones and protect them? i thank u for doctors and medication, platforms that displays ur healings.
recently my best best infact perhaps my only friend, just departed just alittle further from me. oh how i wish she will not go, it really really hurts me so badly knowing i cant see her as much as i wanted. i took it for granted when she was still hanging around. dont misunderstand, she's not dead, just she has moved to another place that is just further for me to meet her. its so comfortable when she was still attending together with me weekly.I miss her really much. when i look around in service last last week. i almost cant help but to cry. i know i should support her, but i really hope God this is the right choice she made and it will bring her ever more closer to u, may it be a very edifying place for her to be in.
God it seems like many things has not been going right according to what i had just typed. But thats not true, so many other things and parts of my life are blossoming. and i continue to thank u for that.
i have such an understanding mate that accompanied through my tough tides in life. he who always pops surprises in my life has been very very very good to me. i really cant ask for anyone better, he is the one. recently we just celebrated our 1 year anniversary. yes we quarrel alot. but its just becus we're both insecure, growing from my seemingly-thought-from-psychology-concepts "anxious-ambivalent' childhood". nah, we'll grow out of it as we aged. and as God's love fills us each day, we'll no longer be insecure innately. our chats our discussions our bicker and even quarrels pulls us even closer and tightens us ever more, building a stronger foundation to our relationship. i thank him for always pulling me back to u. our discussion about u, and what he shares to me about u, really make sense and most of the time encourages me. thank u for a Godly man and a faithful man.
i have started to earn my own allowance. its not easy. thank u God, for providing me with jobs when i needed them desperately. thank u so much!
This year is so different and even more tougher! but may i not forget about u God. may i not be crushed down nor swept away from u. Send ur holy spirit to remind me of ur goodness that endures forever. i lift my burdens to u God.
Continue to bless my family, heal my sister emotionally too. God i let u be in control. take care of my family.
thank u for reminding me to go back to my hiding place. i really needed it.
woah...so much to do everyday. my life is so packed. school, tuitions, weekend packed with church stuff...... awwwwww......i really need a breather. i need a break. i need rest. i need get aways. i need a fresher. i need to FLYYYYYYYY~~~~~~~
But God i know this is good training, but im tired and stress of all those piling school work. help me to conquer them wisely. oh ya, ive been waiting for the scholarship interview. may i get it and receive the scholarship God. to ease my family financial burdens!! may the principal and chairmans gain favour over me. thank u Jesus!
even though dear has started working fulltime and studies part time, im really glad that we could still meet up most of the days! its really a great blessing, the distance the transport the time, all the conveniences, i thank u for them!
yeah cg mtg is starting alrdy. looking forward to worship you. its been long. but u never fail to give me hope.
No one calls me beautiful like you,
And i love how u say it too.
Every word from u is filled with wonder,
I wonder why u love me, but u do.
I would be a fool to argue with u
Maybe i'll be wasting my time
You've given me ur word and based on what ive heard
You must love me really love me. - Rachel Chan (You must love me)
Posted at 6:08 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
