Saturday, April 17, 2010
a wonderful end marks a new adventurous begginging
~my rushy week~
(ps: thats me running in a musuem!)
this week has been rushy, kinda down towards the end but unexpectedly 2 great news cheered me up so much!
wow! thank God! i still cant believe it! God made me believe whats impossible in my eyes is simply just possible in his's. so much for my cryings and all that during my pw days...
i got an A for PW!!! unexpectedly. God did above and beyond what i can expect.
whole class get As and Bs! once again innova did very well :)
today morning, miss margaret made an announcement that PW result will be released at 2pm sharp. that alone made my heart pound. everybody starts to wooo here and there but only me, starts to dread away. how much i dreaded for this day to come. i became emo the whole morn and talk almost to none. i dont wanna rmb all that suffering and griefs in pw ever again and yet today was the release result! pw is the worse subject i had ever taken. ppl can malign and wrong u so much so that u feel like giving up.
of course in the end i didnt gave up. i perservered and today's result was shown to be unbias. im glad it did me justice. last yr during pw, my grp member wronged me and sort of accused me and stuff. i dun wanna rmb ever again. miss margaret screamed at me thru the phone and insulted me so badly that i feel that it became a personal attack on me. i was so angry and felt so maligned and sosososo unfair that i feel like giving up. cried so many times infront of so many teachers cus of this subject.
when man is unfaithful, God is always faithful. miss margaret mentioned and screamed at me last yr that "i will make sure u would NEVER get the same good grade as ur member!". many ppl think this is a wake up call. no it isnt. infact i feel so maligned and accused of what i did. she dont bother to find out the truth and accuse me of not doing my work when i worked so hard and work my life AROUND IT.
im glad God sees it. and today, a mircale happen and i got an A. deep in my heart i know i deserve this grade and all my cries and hard work had been paid off. but i know this is also a miracle becus God turns the situation around when i thought miss margaret is gg to marked me out and comment on my report the wrong stuff that she think of me. im glad she didnt or whatso ever. thank u God! my results was unexpected NOT BECAUSE i didnt work hard for it. BUT BECAUSE i thought i had already been thrown down becus of all that accuses and maligns that some of my grp members and teacher marked on me. in the end the situation turned around and proved justice for those not being praised in class, for those worked hard behind the scene when ppl dun see it.
after all these pw politics, i still wanna thank miss Margaret Ng for all her efforts. she sacrificed alot. so much!! she lost sleep and lost weight(probably). she look so awesome now. so slimed down! from the way she scream and scold me when she misunderstands me, i can tell that she is a very unbias teacher. even thou she scolds me, but i know thats only becus she took me for an "irresponsible" person. she's actually a very very very nice teacher i must say. but i hope she checked things clearly thru 1st before she misunderstand and scold the wrong person again, so that nobody will end up like me. :)
some ppl complained why they didnt get an A when they think they should. i know how that feels. i know exactly how it feels when i got a C for chinese. but i gotta admit God is the key strength to my success. in my darkest and weakest moment, he always works! however during my chinese Alevel, i relied too much on myself n neglected the truth that strength does not come from me alone but from God.
unexpectedly, what i realise with annabelle of a trend in my class is that ppl who get A in our class are mostly christians. these ppl are the ones that teacher did not praised as much as the rest and often being put down by teacher. out of these ppl, most cried before cus of PW. the main thing is not the cry part, but its that ppl who are not recognized by teacher as "good" did well. is that good? i hope it is.
so much happened in PW. so much unhappiness. sooooo much. i cant explained it, its just so overwhelming and it is one of the phase of life that i dun wish to rmb. it is that bad i can say. but thru it, it made me stronger and realise that the world can be against u and condemn u, but God is gonna sees the truth and reward u greatly for what u deserves. thru PW, i realise and experience so many politics that the business or office work experience of betrayal, lies, cover ups, bootlicker and stealing of orignal work. i learnt so much and i thank Jesus for it.
i will be more aware of this world which always caught me off guard when i thought everything is gg smooth.
2nd thing that cheered me up is that unexpectedly a miracle happened again that i do not have to go for STAR PROGRAM(Sit-There-And -Rot program; a program to stay back to study in a distracting environment)! at first i only pass 1 subjects out of my 5 subjects! wow thats a disgusting grade right? somemore the subject that i pass is literature which is my weakest sub and got an E. very dissappointed!! my fav subject econs which i put in quite alot of effort did not pass :(
but aftr moderation, my geog and econ was pulled up! and in the end i pass all subjects except 2 h1s. yeah yeah! no need to go STAR program! and wads most miraculous is that im chosen to go for REAP program for econs so that teacher can mould us to get an A. thats quite impossible right? and unbelievable! frm at first failing econs to getting a D, yet still can go REAP program! lol!! again, I REALISE WHATS IMPOSSIBLE TO ME IS SUPER POSSIBLE AND EASY TO GOD.
Rachel told me that a word comes to her mind when she sees me now and when she look at my pics. the word is "FAITH". wow i was shocked. why would she think of such a word? anyway i treat that as a beautiful compliment. hehe :)
i realise i look so much fatter and bigger in photos. my mom says so too. some random ah beng ask me on fb whether im pregnant! GRRRRR! ROARR! im underweight actually! hehe paiseh thats 2 years ago. now im 90% balanced for my weight and height. still alittle light for my height.
wanna grow heavier towards 100%. is that a good thing?
nah..i'll stay this way!
so this week has been rather beautiful for me! i had saved up using my 1 week allowance for the camera! yea! thx God once again for increased allowance. i will treasure my happiness which not everyone are blessed to have. tomorrow im gg to buy holga! the camera that i hav been dreaming thruout the week! :D
ok some random pics that i took. 1st time trying panaroma shots with shurou on our phones after buying and using our phones for more than a year. lol! playing with it in school library. i must say i admire jean more and more! she's very photogenic and i think she's perfect to advertise for ASIAN PRODUCTS. she's got the ASIAN BEAUTY. kinda korean look at certain angles. jean, the girl in the 1st shot who is fairer.
this is gladys and joy. took this when i brought them out one day to swim at dad's gym.
"they (the unfortunates, poor and needy) follow each other on the wind ya know, cus they got no where to go"- Michael jackson.
Ciao!
THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING IN MY LIFE! :)
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