Saturday, May 15, 2010
Aspirations
~my pacing week~
I began my Saturday morning by reading some inspirational blogs!
Guess what, i found some, and they are pretty interesting and encouraging. Some blogs came from my school mates, and it changed my perspectives of them. Some people look simple and from the way they talk to u, u may just think they look very superficial, but alas! Their blogs talk about really engaging and inspirational topics. Wow. This taught me not to judge which i often did without knowing. First impression often causes many including me to judge.
I’m trying to expose myself to more genre of songs... remember what inspirational Boon always say, we gotta be more expose to more, and not just “Paramore” to learn more and be a true musician. Come to think of it, the way he say it its quite funny...hahas. i guess i’m too much into jazz, that even my friends say when i sing rock songs, there’s still jazz in it. hmm...
i bought 2 albums last week. Intro them to my frens, and they said its nice too!
One by MYMP, absolute acoustic. Man, i gotta say, she sang really sweetly, it makes me feel that im in a jazz bar. Lol! The other album by 3pm, our church Indonesian band. Woah, they were really great! Even thou its in Indonesian language and i dun understand, but i really feel the presence of God just through their music.
oh i just realise these 2 albums are produced by indonesian bands!!
MYMP from indonesia too!
I’ve collected my very own Holga camera’s pictures! Hmm.. what can i say.. its not up to my expectations, but nevertheless, its still sweeeeee! Ok here goes!
as i look up from my corridor of my new hse, this is what i see.
i just love the sky. it produce wonders!

this was taken from my corridor too.
a school which is quite abandon as its closed down alrdy. this is the school where my uncle studied and met my his girlfriend! btw he just proposed! after 10yrs being tgt. lol! successful proposal! ps. my uncle is only 26 this yr. mr chua thought he was 30-40+. lols!!
Holga is manually controlled. that's the fun part, where i can take a few shots within 1 frame. here goes what joy took with it. she took a picture of eugenia, our gate and our bicycle. and thats what came out. abstract right? i call this the fortunate borders. where eugenia is smiling happily trapped inside a gate with a bike. lols!

this is nth much, just a candid shot of gladys and joy.
i should had used the colour filter!

gladys used the yellow coloured filter on me.
this effect is better than the usual white flash.
hehe, my cousin zayne accidentally blinked. and it turns out quite cute actually!
the negatives.

i kept the other pics in this small album.

oh yar and some random photos of my grandparents, hehe.
my ah gong, old gong gong liao. 71 this yr if im not wrong. hehe.
he got much nicer smilley shots in eugenia's digital cam.

i took it without ah ma's notice! this is how she look at home.
i got much prettier shots of her when she smile and dress up when she go out.
even thou she's old, but i must say that all women love to dress up. come to think of it, she's not that old la. just 63.

for mothers' day, i gave mom this daisy, it lasted till today! and it still looks beautiful.

The sports heats in school really stirred something within me. I mean not to further my training but it got me thinking. Last yr, i gave myself way too much pressure to run. And that i lost my passion in running. My 4 yrs in sec school in track team and cross team were full of excitement and i really learnt alot back then. My speed and endurance drastically improved during those years. During my last yr in sec school, i gave my best for nationals cross country. our track team is a combi of both long dist and short dist. And thru that cca, i felt that we left a legacy behind in school. We were a very bonded team i gotta say. During my sec 3 days, we went out almost every weekend to watch movies and just have fun at somebody’s hse. Perhaps becus of our bond, we worked hard tgt and we all did well!
In sec 4, my 2.4km timing was around 11.40mins. of course its not good, but i felt great as i improve, with improvement, comes achievement. When all cca has stopped training becus of prelim for Olevel, we still train. And we stopped training in july just before prelim for o level. Many people say we r crazy, as in studies and Olevel should come before our nationals. But i felt that as long as we can balance, that settles. And my Olevel results proved them wrong. but after my nationals, i stopped training. Completely stopped. And 7 mths without training, my endurance fell drastically! In jc 1st yr, my 2.4 timing really was a shock to me as my timing deprove alot. My passion fall and i no longer grew interested in running which surprises me! This sports heats stir within me images of the past, my track team, my cross country team in sec school. Well, its pretty pleasant to think of them.
i found my race' number tags for the past yrs! thx God its still there for memories! :)

Yes! Beside proving to my classmates that i can balance my sports and my Olevel well, i proved all the non-believers in my class wrong too! most of them are my frens but they would still question my faith, tell me that i cant get good grades for Olevel becus i spent too much time training and that i dun have much time to study. Many people question whether i can do it, they know im Christian. And they started to “persecute” me of my faith in God.
I tell them “my God CAN do it for me”.
Of course i have to study my part as well. I dropped Amaths, and many “persecute” again. “why u drop? U have 1 less subject to score well to get into poly or jc”... many ppl started questioning especially on my faith in God. They know i go to church every weekend as our cellgroup in school grew and more people join, and most of them were invited to our church before. So i guess thats how we started. They started to ask, how are we gonna cope if we keep gg to church during weekend.
I wanted to tell them “if i dun go to church every weekend for God’s presence, i don’t know how am i gonna cope”.
That is the year where i depended on God really really much. My faith broke thru to a whole new level. My results surprises my non-beliver friends! Yes! All glory unto God!
This yr, Alevel, i gotta place the same faith in God once again. But, for an even greater cause!
Faith+work= perfect.
I keep this equation in mind. I have the faith, but i dun have the work. Thats my problem now. Im tooooo lazy. Too lazy for my own good.
im glad i have great frens in class who motivate me to study. very glad. all smart girls i must say. hehe. this yr, without guys in our class, we thought we would be quieter, but no. the truth is, we talk more, and grew noisier. oops. for the first time in my life, i felt like i was in a girls school. hahas. good experience.

today, i gotta make a difference! im gonna write down what i have to do today. here goes!
1) 1 reap essay of a) and b)
2) 3 geog essays for consultation
3) 1 gp essay for consultation
4) 1 lit essay on TIOBE hmwk
total 7 essays to finish up.
i wish i can finish all of them!
yes i will! if not, it gonna make me feel even lousier in school work.
ARGH... I CAN DO IT!
Ciao and God bless! :D
Posted at 12:38 PM
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