Friday, May 20, 2011
Putting on the shield of faith
~my Good and beautiful week~
Thx God for a wonderful cellgroup :D they are so understanding and more than what i can ask for. i feel so blessed being in this cg :)
This is me and my bestie friend! shu rou! she's so fun to hang out with and she understands every single joke that i crack which not everybody understands. nobody else can ever replace her! :D
its still the same girl incase u r wondering. we LAUGH tgt almost ALL the time. :D
This is me and my another bestie friend RACHEL. xD she knows me inside out. Thank God for such a NICE FRIEND WHERE I CANT FIND ANYWHERE :D im hard to tolerate but she accept all my flaws! i simply LOVE HER.
hello this is me after so loooong.
ok here goes...(its boring, u could glance, skip, do anything u want, or just browse fb and just
listen to my alarice-midnight train track.) LOL.
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what am i actually doing? im chilling too much for my own good. not working, not studying not doing anything. im doing exactly what bruno mars is singing " today i dont feel liek doing anything".
well i like chilling at home, occasionally helping out some house chores, using my laptop watching some good covers of songs sung and played or jammed by some ppl who r yet to be discovered.
well i enjoy playing sports with my friends and just sweating all out.
well i like to practice on the guitar even thou it seems like i am playing a few rubber bands beign tied to a box. ( thats how bad i am)
well i like to sing a little at home and also just immitating some ppl's voice ( which can get quite addictive over time)
but i...
do not like working (having to do the same stuff over and over again)
do not like to step out of home to go some place i dont like knowing i would dread it.
do not like to hang out with ppl whom i tink would be ratehr boring and NEGATIVE.
i do not like talking to ppl who are so downright negative, they turns me off immediately. ( i am not talking abt depressed ppl, but more of those who put the word "die" and "fail" and "wont la" on their lips all the time) but im definitely trying to engage them as much as possible to spread some POSITIVITY to them.
so what i am tryign to say is that...
I AM JUST WASTING MY TIME AWAY FOR THIS HOLIDAY.
i cant exactly say "wasting", becus this break, i TOTALLY DESERVE IT.
for 15 STRAIGHT YEARS OF MUGGING WITHOUT ANY TUITION without any help frm centres yet to climb myself up to express stream, and to JC. dont u tink i totally deserve this looooong break that ppl say im wasting? i may never get it again in my life (especially in this worldly earth which always talks abt work)
i feel rather recharged alrdy and have confidence and FAITH that i will defnitely do well in Uni. right now im just waiting for my uni application results.
HONESTLY, THIS ANTICIPATION IS KILLING ME.
im so scare, everynight literally im tinking of my future.
almost every night i just tell God that im assured that my future is in His hands. and I will follow wherever he wants me to go and do.
but definitely i still got the chills tinking abt what could probably happen that i don not wish to happen.
i do not wish to even mention abt what could possibly be the worse to happen.
cus i believe that what i THINK, SPEAK, VISUALIZE AND CONFESS definitely can change what is gonna happen. in other words, im refering to pastor yongi cho's "4th dimentional living" book. its probably the BEST BOOK I EVER READ.
ok so, mommy and frens, pls stop asking me where would i go and what would i do if....!
cus when God has called me to this area, it MUST be it.
i mean, He is gonna help me to get in, He is greater than any problem that i may face.
MY GOD IS GREATER, MY GOD IS OVER ALL! :)
ok ppl, pls stop scaring me. and pls stop asking what worse could happen. dont even think abt it.
FAITH IS THE HOPE I HANG ONTO TO BREAK ME FROM MY FALL.
ISAIAH 43 :18-19"but forget all that- it is nothing compared to what i am going to do. For I am about to do something NEW. See, i have already begun! Do u not see it? I WILL make a pathway through the wilderness. I WILL create rivers in the dry wasteland." When i read this verse of course doubts come, this is definitely due to my "this level of faith" which has yet to over pour. But it defnitely somehow assured me that He will make a way for me.
"God will make a way, where there seems to be no way" ( even thou times seems to be running out for me)
Let me share u a verse that i read it almost every single day on the train to sch for "ALEVEL TRAINING".
haggai 2:18-19 (NIV)"Think about this eighteenth day of December, teh day when the rebuilding of the Lord's Temple began. Think carefully. I am giving u a PROMISE NOW while the seed is still in the barn. You have not yet harvested ur grain, and ur grapevines, fig trees, pomegranates and olive trrees have not yet produced their crops, BUT FROM THIS DAY I WILL BLESS YOU!"THIS DAY! how absolute can God be! every day i read this and this reminds me that THIS DAY HE WILL BLESS ME even though i cant see any roots sprouting out of what i had sowed.
I hate that im a worrier. FELICIA, u r definitely not a worrier. spirit of worries, let me tell u, u r nth compared to what my God is gonna do for me! :)
i guess confessing really helps, helps alot in realizing what has yet to happen.
let me recap...
Pastoe Cho mentioned that
1) thinking(sowing the start of something)
2) faith(believing)
3) dreams(visualizing)
4) words (confessing)
are the factors that influence what is about to happen, from the fourth dimentional realm and penetrate it into the 3rd dimentional realm.
now, im questioning myself, what am i waiting for? i need more work on the faith factor. i do think, i do dream i do confess. But to tackle and raise my faith level, i definitely need to equip myself with the word of God.
MUCH TO THINK AND PRAY HUH...
ok Ciao~!
Posted at 2:12 AM
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