many miracles happen to me! no matter how small they are in other's eyes, but to me, they r important stepping stones in my life. like what the beautiful amanda mentioned in my cellgroup fb page, God cares for something that is so trivial to others but yet so important to me!
i prayed during my trip in kelong. while others were having fun and also asleep. i prayed and wrote letters to God asking Him for things i thought never would have came true. i knew He will hear my prayers. and during the whole trip i was listening to "walk on the water" by britt nicole. the lyrics means much to me and totally apply to the situation i am in. i wanna walk on the water too. thx for chee qing for posting this song on fb! truly u never know what u did could change a person life or influence their decisions. :)
the moment i prayed, i visualise how loooong would it take me to get there, but guess what, God is good. the nxt day when i reached singapore, He surprises me with an open door! but that open door is full of many obstacles! i begin to thank God for offering me this chance i have been praying yet somehow i thought it would never happen? God is good, he answered my prayers right the next day! and guess what, he really did ANSWERED my prayers as in before the night comes.
so many obstacles like im running out of time, i dont know the place, my hp no batt, i dont know the dynamics and techniques of the songs yet, its been 1 year since i last touch the instrument i seem to fear to touch again. i lost the studio no, i needed my sister to accompany me and support me. guess what, all these obstacles ALL HAPPENED! yet i overcame them one by one. the time factor is the one i worried abt. i needed more time to practice, i needed the reporting time to be shifted later... so many thoughts came to my mind.
i ask God for peace and calm me down, im excited yet i keep thinking perhaps i should just skip this audition? anyway, its easier to run away. but WAIT, how could i do that when God has open the door for sth i ask for years ago.
the lyric of the song of "walk on the water" came to me where it sings "what do u have to lose?" truly, what do i have to lose? at most i wasted my trip? at most i wasted my time which i would probably use to sleep -_-"? seriously I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE.
the lyrics of the song came to me singing " s0 u try to play it safe, trying to run away". sure do, i wanna run away. i want to, badly. LOL!
"ur faith is all it takes, and u can walk on the water too" this is defnintely what i will get if i step out.
"step out even though ur heart is telling you to give up" sure do, i have to step out.
so i went and overcame my procrastinations. and guess what, i felt worse after i practice, i felt im downright lousy. so so so lousy untill i cant explain myself.i feel like skipping the whole audition and prac and give up. cus im so so so soso soso lousy. i cant explain how bad i felt then. so inferior and hmm.. just the word lousy. any the ways i went down cus my fren encouraged me to, and i felt that i shouldnt run away, " i have nth to lose" at most i make a fool of myself?
and guess what?! God did exceedingly abundantly above what i wish and prayed for! i didnt expect myself to go this far. i did it! as in i went for it! haha. and i did better than i thought even thou its still lousy. but God did exceedingly abundatly what i expected for! woots!
i imagined if i didnt turn up today, i wouldnt have such results. so thx God for pushing me to go today. i could have run away, but he gave me the strength to overcome my greatest enemy- PROCRASTINATION.
wow. i still cant imagine. i know im still lousy,but i know God wants to pick me up. and i will FOLLOW. a verse came to my mind.
james 4:10
"when u humble urself, God will exalt you "
truly when i humble myself before God, and admit im really nothing without Him, He truly exalt me by answering my prayers.
i m awaiting my biggest miracle in my academic life. and i know he will bring me where He wants me to :)
thx u God for the abundant grace!
lyrics of walk on the water by britt nicole.
You look around and staring back at you. Another wave of doubt. Will it pull you under? You wonder...What if i'm overtaken? What if i never make it? What if no one's there? Will you hear my prayer? ( God will u hear me of all the doubts i have? come to my rescue.)
When you take that first step,Into the unknown. You know that he won't let you go. so what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose? Your insecurities, They try to hold to you. But you know you're made for more! So don't be afraid to move! Your faith is all it takes! And you can walk on the water too! ( i have nothing to lose, for u r the greatest miracle i shall ever share, u r the creator of everything, u r higher and greater than all my troubles. )
So get out and let your fear fall to the ground! No time to waste, don't wait! And don't you turn around, and miss out on Everything you were made for.Gotta be, I know you're not sure, more, So you play it safe, you try to run away. ( i wont run away this time! )
If you take that first step Into the unknown, He won't let you go. So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose? Your insecurities, They try to hold to you. But you know you're made for more! So don't be afraid to move. Your faith is all it takes! And you can walk on the water too! ( i can walk on water too! )
Step out, even when it's storming! Step out, even when you're broken! Step out, even when your heart is telling you,telling you to give up! Step out, when your hope is stolen! Step out, you can't see where you're going. You don't have to be afraid! So what are waiting, what are you waiting for? So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose..? Your insecurities, They try to hold to you. But you know you're made for more! So don't be afraid to move. Your faith is all it takes! And you can walk on the water,walk on the water too! :) ( i will STEP OUT AND GLORIFY YOU! )
ciao! xD
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