Tuesday, July 19, 2011
God's grace
as a matter of fact, im truly where i am by God's grace for me.
putting aside and taking away all the blessings, i ask myself: will i still love Jesus?
for true love is proven only when it is tested, and like job, he came forth as GOLD after being tested, after being strip down "naked" of all he has. what great faith he have!
of course im imperfect, but i chose not to condemn.
sometimes things can be sooooooo soooooo tough that i cant help but to really question God why has he place me in such an awkward and tough phase?
i know the devil will try his means to provoke me : my parents scolding n demoralizing me and stuff.
but what can i really do? prove them i m worth something? hmm... how? they dont really see the sacrifices i make and of course partly im at fault rather.
but after all the self-nagging and questionings, in the end i still chose to hang on to all the promises He made for me.
ts pretty good that things are starting to fall into place now. even thou i still cant see the big picture yet, i know He is in control.
God has been good, whatever i ask fervently he gave me.
i ask for job opportunity in special school as a teacher, he gave me two open doors and interviews. unfortunately, i realise once i step in, there is no turning back for the job given is not exactly part time. the contract is too long and i probably hav to give up my degree education. and besides, the commitment is rather high, which means i may have to forsake my other plans to teach in my own sch innova jc.
but God gave me another open door straight the moment i felt helpless. my ex music instructor from ijc called me to help him out. even thou i have not heard about the terms and how much eh is intending to pay me and stuff like that, i cant thank God enough for this open door! it has always been my pleasure to teach whatever i know about music to my fellow peers.
even thou im still just a student, learning from my current instructor in Timbre on skills of singing, God used me with that littlest i know to teach the people. seriously what i know is like peanuts, and further more im not even good yet. thank God for his grace. :)
and recently i was given the opportunity to sing and help out at a minds centre in hougang together with my ijc instructor. even thou its rather informal, it still felt great as in, i feel happy to interact with the kids there :) and surprisingly, they know plenty of pop songs which im rather surprised! a few kids will just look into ur eyes when u sing for them, as if they r captivated by what u r doing. their eyes sparkles, and there's just something about them :D
i pray and hope more will come into place :)
ciao! :D
Posted at 2:25 PM
Handwriten by Felicia.L
